Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
what can i say? what can i say? im sorry, but apologising doesnt help. maybe you'll feel better if i tell you i stopped, i really did. check it yourself. even the scars have faded, somewhat. jean...i know its supremely weak. i know its pathetic, especially that i was against it in the first place. what can i say? irony.
i admitted, i was going through a rough patch earlier. mental problems? yeah i think i have them. like so numb nothing hurts anymore. nothing can take away the emptiness. all you want is just to feel, to feel anything, pain so be it. at least pain is a better replacement than nothing. you might understand, i need the pain, it keeps me alive, emotionally.
im sorry. and thats all i can say.
let your heart out.