Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
aint this blog so dead
you dont tag anymore do you
what is happening to you
why must you do weird things to yourself
i mean
you can do whatever you want
but
dont have to tell me right
and when you tell me you smile like shit and tell me its really cool
EXCUSE ME
dont you remember how much it hurts my mum to see me cut
dont you remember how you stopped me doing that in that period of time
and now you re making it sound so good
what do you expect me to say
i didnt even give you my consent to accepting your situation of
'ooh,cutting is So coool
look i cut this here and here and here and im pretty satisfied!yaay!'
haha have yo any eq at all
so i go around and be nice and chummy with you
because i dont know what in the world to behave like
and i dont want to lose you
but
you re different kay
you re so
different
just because you have to .erm.move on?
make new friends?
yes people may misunderstand you
but how much do you misunderstand people?
and maybe you think im crapping all this shit up
and im just another goner friend to you
and i dont mean anything to you
everything is your those friends friends friends
and maybe you ll get those ohsocoool! friends to read this stupid post
and get mad at me and say all those fuck words and stuff and get so mad
or start cutting: 'jean sux' everywhere on your body
haha
have you evr thought
what scars you might ever leave behind?
and how much pain you have caused to certain people?
everything seems to be about yourself nowadays
you kinda hate your parents now right?
yeah
either your dad was senile
or your piano was old
but he didnt ask you
but you dont play your piano
so what if he did that?
you dont have to send some rubbish sms to me
spouting fuck and all
i wont do that if my dad does something like that to my piano
and hello
im more attached to mine than you to yours
and all the weird things you write on your blog
you re publicising everything
a lot of people know your blog alr you know?
and a lot of ppl tell me they think you re weird
and your studies
dont you give a hoot about that?
mrs tien gives a lot of hw
and
whoever other nasty teachers too.
but this is only the first term.
and you re not even doing your hw properly.
whose fault is that?
when im in a worse class than you and im completing almost all my hw on time
not boasting but
cant you see
youre ruining everything for yourself
this is only the first term
dont you rem all the teachers and everybody saying
that the terms following are much tougher than now?
and will grow even more so next year
if you plan to get past sec three,that is.
i dont know how good or bad your studies are
but in the long run
i dont know whether you and i and whoever else ll get retained
haha
theres a possibility though
and you know chloe?
how fucking long have you known her
before you made these new friends of yours
at least more than a year am i right?
and you know all her antics and good and bad points about her alr
you should know she always tries to use her talents to the fullest and tries to shine
you should know her very well alr
why do you choose NOW to show your displeasure and irritation?
and how did you fall out with py?
isit because of what your friend says?
hates her to the core so you cant be with her?
or isit because shes so horrid you cant stand her anymore
and
so
i dont know anymore
i wish youd change
i really do
i dont think you even read this blog anymore
do you even care about my feelings
maybe you do but
i dont know how you do that
i dont know if you ll scorn me after all this
i dont know if you ll ever write back or talk to me again
but the purpose of this post is to tell you about what is happening to you
you re so naive now to me
ive been through sth like that
so can you pull through too
or ruin yourself like you are now
i dont know
it aint jasmine or whoever asked me to write this shit
no
i just want you to wake up please
you of course go ahead being with your friends
but
well
at least
change your mind set?
do your hw?
plan for the future?
you can hate me if you want
its your body your mind your everything now aint it
but for your own sake
can you try and think
about what you really are
are you hiding behind a mask just to look popular
is this what you call true happiness all this while
how much have your new classmates have affected you
whether your mind and soul are truly sober
and whether you want to keep this blog going
which is the mark of our friendship?
i ll be pleasured to.
but only if you bother to.
-jean
let your heart out.