Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
im itching all over cause i've got sorethroat or something. first of all, i do read the blogs, but i dont tag that is, cause i dont see the point and i cant think of anything to tag. secondly, i do not think or go "ooooooohhh its so cool to cut here and there and here and there and all overrrrrr" thirdly, i would not cut "jean sux" on myself cause i dont think you do and i would not bitch about you or py or jas or wtf. i know you're being a good friend and everything advising me against cutting. but like what i said on my blog, its hard to put yourself in another's shoe. you see me smiling like shit to you to her to them to everyone but does that mean i smile like that when i cut or is using that to show off cause seriously its nothing to show off about. i do not go flashing to irrelevant people who would gossip and bitch and yes, misunderstand. I WOULD NOT BITCH ABOUT YOU JEAN, OR PY OR JAS OR WHOEVER. and whats with the chunk about 'coooool! friends!' so i shouldn't make new friends at all, or talk to only those that you approve of? i write a lot on my blog recently because i cant seem to find anyone i could talk to anymore. everything i put down is real about me and i do not do or write wtf to gain popularity. blogging really gets this load off my mind you understand? and i dont talk to basically anyone about what im doing anymore. and fine, if you dont like it when i sms you about something that you dont want to hear about then fine. i know a lot of people know about my blog and i dont give a fuck, i like to write alot about wtf shit there is to be. classmates do not influence me to hate anybody, that is honest. chloe, how much do you know about the relationship between me and her? i was only like hi bye friends last year cause i knew her through py. i didnt know her well and yeah i thought she was really nice and everything, but this year when i get closer to her in the sense that i sit next to her, my opinion kind of gradually changes you know? try it jean, i would like to see you try. i mean, she is a nice person and everything but some things just really gets on your nerves and you got to keep her at a distance so you wont feel the impulse to jam something into her mouth to make her shutup. MY CLASSMATES DO NOT AFFECT ME AND I AM NOT MAD AT YOU ALTHOUGHT IM TYPING THIS IN CAPS. oh fuck and i do not hate py okay? no one said anything about py at all, i swear. i just do not know how to handle this friendship and im lazy so i prefer to keep it dangling there. sheesh, did you read the part about me starting to like mrs tian now? i think she's a pretty good teacher, and she's funny too. my blog is just a vent for my feelings so i do not have to care about what i would sound like or mean to other people. retain? i DO NOT want to be retain. jean, you know how i am okay? i do not try to get myself to fail any test okay? oh wait, maybe you dont know how i am after all. OMFUCK CAN I JUST BASH MY HEAD INTO THE FUCKING COM SO I CAN JUST BE SEND INTO ICU AND NOT CARE ABOUT THE FUCK THAT REVOLVES AROUND ME? sorry that was just to vent. oh jean i don't know how to cram everything into this so i'm gonna call you now. i dont know if anything could be done but...shucks i hate this.
let your heart out.